i don't wanna cry anymore.
i wanna be happy again.
it's all coming so fast and i don't know what to do.

i've been way too emotional lately. hopefully this helps.. i'm sick of my friends.. i mean i love them but this is the first day i've had to myself in a verrry long time. i have so much to do i just feel unmotivated. i felt a burst of happiness when i saw that my brother bought me a warped tour ticket, then i was like wow, i have a brother?! i never see or talk to him anymore and that makes me cry. and i think my mom's death is finally starting to get to me really bad. it's hard to keep back the tears everytime i think of these things. i hope my brother doesn't move away, even though he is a pain in my ass, he's all i really got. friends come and go but he'll always be there. i don't know what i'd do without him...

 hour 1

hour 2

(richie dedicated "i want it that way" by backstreet boys to ally :P)

brookey! (and luke doing his weird thing he does)

people

idiots

luke and lauren doing their thing

me at like hour 14

 

i slept for 10 minutes wooo

lucky people

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

lol omg last night was amazing. it started at 7 and i was like boohoo cause we didn't leave the house until like 7:15 ish and we got there at about 7:30 but luckily there were a few opening bands and they were I Killed The Prom Queen, He Is Legend, and It Dies Today. we got there when he is legend was playing and all the way in the back so i was kinda sad but then after they were done i got on the floor and made my way up to the front. it's a pretty small venue only a few hundred people. and he is legend was horrrriible. but it dies today was really good but the heaviest band there and i got KILLED. i fell down soo many times and lost my cell but at least i didn't lose my camera or my money. it was nice being pushed up against all these beautiful sweaty people :]  then i got up closer and aiden came on and GOD it was amazing. their set seemed short though. i got a bunch of pics and videos. and the braveheart thing was weeeaakk. and stupid i barely felt anything. there wasn't many people though so yeah. then wil stood on top of us and did the speach thing he always does about how we're all a family and how we gotta be there for eachother, and it doesn't matter your race or blah blah or whatever cause we're all here for the same reason and we can make it through this crazy fucked up world if we stay together. and he stood on top of us at the end of world by storm. and nick came and crowd surfed at one time. sorry i couldn't call you alex. then silverstein came on and truthfully they played pretty bad and aiden are much better performers, but i still love silverstein. afterwards this is what happened. i went to the merch table and i was like OMG cause angel was sitting right there. so i bought a shirt and we had a mini conversation. and he signed my shirt and i was like "can you sign this uhhhh dollar, for my boyfriend? we really loove you guys" and he was like "aw your such a sweeetheart. thanks soo much" lol mat said he looked like a fat turd. and i'm like nooooooo he's the pillsbury doughboy XD then we left to look for my cell and i was like fuck fuck fuck i just met angel and i was in a daze. then i was like maybe i should go get a pic with him? then i passed paul, the drummer of silverstein, and i was like WOAH HEY PAUL! but he kinda was walking fast and he was just like "uh hey!" lol so i didn't know what to do then i was like what the heck i'll just go back to the merch table. so he was talking to a few other girls so i was just  waiting there then RIGHT NEXT TO ME IS WIL talking to some girl and i'm just like WIL! HEY! and he's like hey!! and i totally cut the other girl off lol and i had noo clue what was going on so i was like "it's soooo nice to meet you" and i go for his hand and he just hugs me. he was soooooo sweet and you can tell he really cares about his fans. and i told him i saw them at warped and i told him how much i love him and how much i admired him and what he said earlier. and he was just the coolest guy ever. then he signed the dollar and i got a pic with him. afterwards i was sooo out of my mind happy cause things like that never happen to me. oh and i also said hi to josh from silverstein after the show. and i swallowed large quantities of water that came out of wil's mouth hehehehe. now i have huge bruises on my biceps from really strong guys that were surrounding me during silverstein and one on my chest and my hip. but it was soo worth it and i deserved it all because today is my HALF BIRTHDAY GO ME!! XDD